There is a reason I wanted to create this side-blog and explore a side of my life away from my main accounts. It’s often questionable and strange to many, and I don’t get to talk about it often because of this.

I’m in love with the dark and the supernatural as much as I sometimes fear it, and it seems to love me as well. It follows me even during waking hours — in the shadows cast by the sunlight that paints a stark distinction of two worlds. While ghosts and hauntings can happen during the day as much as the night, there are certain energies and beings that exist only in darkness. This darkness, as I’ve been exploring for most of my life, is where I belong, which sounds horribly cryptic and edgy. It’s the only way I can describe it.

My spirit guides are from this darker world, one having formerly been of a lighter existence. The three of them help me explore this often unnerving world, and they assist me in coming to terms with it since it’s a part of my life with or without them. Because I do spiritual work and I keep the company of demons and fallen angels in this way, other entities will come to the perimeter from time to time to watch and merely observe. Not a lot of people explore this alternate sort of reality, so it’s only natural they’d be curious.

Can anyone gain access to see another side of reality? Yes. Do I recommend it? Not necessarily.

To be completely honest here, I do have mental health diagnoses. I am also grounded in science and reality as much as I am able to be. I’ve accepted this alternate state that I am in a lot of the time, and if my mental illness gives me an easier access to this world, then I’m not going to waste it. I will always try to debunk what I can, and my guides — Darokin, Byleth, and Zagan Lestan — will also keep me grounded.

I’ve had chronic nightmares, night terrors, oddly spiritual or philosophical dreams, and sleep paralysis nightmares. Sleep paralysis nightmares don’t happen as often as they used to, but that solely depends on how manic or symptomatic I am. Napping during the day, however, will be a sure way to trip into that horrific experience.

I’ve written many of those dreams into short horror stories. They are true to the original dream, of course. Most importantly though, I’m not here to lie. I’m not here to create a fake story to get attention. This is just an outlet and my attempt to reach out to find others who live in this strange world, too.

Have you brought sleep paralysis entities back with you, and heard them speak upon waking? Have you experienced hypnagogic or hypnopompic visions and sounds? Have you seen shadow men or strange figures lurking in your peripheral, or felt like you were being watched, only to seconds later hear a door creaking or a tapping nearby?

Welcome to my life. Hopefully it’s enlightening to read.

©2020 Shane Blackheart


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